Shardae1

I'm not sure.. I'm just sitting here really... Trying to find something valuable to do with my time. I realized that I haven't been on Deviant Art since 2009 and I was curious to revisit with my work. It always good to see how far you've come as a writer, but to be honest, I'm not sure I've grown. What kind of writer can only write when they are inspired, or have some kind of personal muse? I'm wondering if maybe writing isn't my thing altogether. I'd be very interested to hear people's thoughts on this.. Have you ever felt like writing isn't for you?

I started out really upset about my financial situation. But now I see that I'm being selfish, there are so many people out here who don't have half of what I do. It is hard for me right now, but for so many other reasons that no one but I can understand. I think I shower myself with materialistic things because it covers up the hurt and the pain of living everyday life. So, how do I get past the materialistic cover-ups? What do I use as therapy if I don't have the financial means to cover up my pain? There has to be another way to be happy and grieve and relieve stress..

I am extremely shocked and irritated about what men say about women,if they took the time to get to know us in the inside maybe they wouldn't say some of the sexist things that they do. After being in a room full of them and listening to what they really think of us, it makes me question whether or not any of the ones I've been with really even care for me. It's quite sad to only be thought of as a piece of ass, or even worse nothing at all. Apparently because I am none of the potentials whores or bitches(as they call us) I was no longer in the room as they went on disrespecting our minds and bodies. I am a woman if they forgot, and I do dese